Why? Sometimes this beauty is choking me,
but at least it's your hands on my throat.
Your lashes brush against my cheek, coupled
with your breath on my neck. The world around
you falls away and I will still be there. I
know my words are like daggers but they cut
me too...oh. . And I am sorry for all the fucked
up things I say I didn't mean it. And I never
realized that I can be what I hate. Lets be
happy with what we have, enjoy the beauty in
these days. Sometimes we'll laugh sometimes
we'll scream no one said caring was easy. I
know there was a time when emotions felt like
pulling teeth. Sometimes I felt so soulless
I couldn't even look at me. It's pathetic to
hate who you are and it feels like hell to
change. But Ill be damned if I push you
away. I remember when my dreams were dying
and I damned; I damned the sun to pieces. I
carved hateful thoughts into my chest and
then you took my hand
and nothing has ever felt the same

yeah theres this really cool shawn guy that i know i really think i should go see him this weekend that would be awesome yeah but my dad suck gonads so i dont know if i will be able too.Yeah and i still owe him five dollars because OU sux really bad and i just dont wanna admit it.well peace out mutha fluckas..

  ^^ THAT WAS ALL SHAWN!!

                     ((EDDIIT))

   Jessica i'll take you to the candy shop for a taste of what i got =) . Girl what we do and where we be is just between me and you. i <3 you .. my cd kicks anus!! Thanks and it is Ghetto Fab-U-Luss!! Your cd made my day soooo much better when i got home =)!! Thanks babe! Anyways for the rest of the freaking day = Stupid,,, Boring,,, Got Grounded,,, Got Yelled At. w00t w00t!! That was the most exciting part w00t! But yeah 9 weeks test are next week alllll week. So yeah..I have to make atleast a B on my math test or i dont get to go >>snowboarding<< and im going sooo.. i have to ace this test! Which should be pretty easy since i aced the one in math today. But we will see!! If i dont go snowboarding i get to stay with Justin..which will be a blast because Justin is just one funny mother effer! I <3 that man ;;;;; we tight;;;;;    Gosh man im sleepy .. we got Riley on dads phone and he was HEADBANGING to the max... he's only 1 1/2 yr's old! Hes soooo damn cute!! But anyways today in computer me and Hannah were shooting rubberbands at people!! I hit Collier like 4 times and he was like GOSH STOP IT! --Oh and Thursday of spring break im probally going paintballing with Matt,,, Aimme,,, Jordan,,, Kylee,,, Beth,,, and i dont know the rest! But yeah it's going to be a BLAST!! Well anyways ... im going to go for now.

                                                     <3 hali

                WORDS OF WISDOM .... 

      don't play leap frog with a unicorn.<<

                                              <3

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A callused mind with no slack for healing I bite my teeth down to keep from speaking I want to be brave come understand me this bullshit kills me come understand me so who's on your side come braid your life with mine the only defense you have is something you call pride to strong to ever change why cant you set me free from these things I wont forget you tied me down so I can't see so I live with regret I reach for the top to get the surface I write with blood now to reach a purpose

fuck you and your beauty Shayla.

shayla wants my bod! hells yeah!!!!! i want her's also <3

Currently Playing Punk Statik Paranoia By Orgy see related

Today lets see today SUCKED. This morning me and my dad got into it. I just disgust him. Plus for the past 3 days something has been eating away at me. Just i've been down and i can't eat or sleep. It's like just fuck the world. Then Jordan and i got into it. So today has been horrible.  This whole fucking week has been screwed up. I can't think .. it's taken all of the motivation out of me. 1st of all my dad is one big a-hole...and my step mom has been a witch. I haven't wanted to do anything with the family and they yell at me because i dont spend enough time with them. Urgh i need my own time and space to breathe. I'm just sooo sick of hurting inside and it's like it never goes away. So as my eyes fill with tears i try and hold my head up high but it just fucks with me instead. I'm just soo confused. Then i come home and almost screw things up with me and Shawn ... and now im just a little pissed at myself. Things are just spinning in my head.

Today when i got home from school i came upstairs and just fell in the floor and started crying.

Faster than nothing I remember. Everything in the quiet hour in the waking, waiting, wonder lit, hour of watching things I have seen nothing, I remember nothing before I speak. The song I sing silently in my head is nothing…

alright today was pretty awesome.
im sick .. it sucks ass and all but i had fun with my day today!!

1st hr- Math was pretty great. Ha yeah right!! It was exciting though beacause of Matt H. .. he is awesome! We rolled up our pants to our knees and i had tube socks on and we were acting like "gangsta's" larry corrected my white folk talk today .. i said "gangster" and he got pissed .. and said it was "gangsta." so hells yea!
---Passing time---
in the chaple me and jordan, kylee, matt h. and skylar did a dance with our rolled up jeans and aimee got it on her camera! i was singing "break me off a piece of that kit kat bar" it was awesome!
2nd hr-Was el boring-o Mrs.Klein was in a moody mood.
3rd hr-We talked about cults then i fell asleep for 30 minutes.
4th hr-Spanish ... el sucked-o! We had a quiz. ((which i failed))
--LUNCH---
I made a video of my pony ((the dinosour eats the pony)) it was hott
--CHAPLE--
Made a video ((me being a rabbit with averi)) then i attacked her and me and hannah were flying dutchman's!
5th hr-GAYAH.
6th Hr- Mr.Hankins we tried to give him seaweed. He wouldnt eat it. Dang It!! Then they talked all hr i talked to myself. ((like ALWAYS))
7th hr-Me and Hannah were looking at ratemythongs.com whoop whoop. WE HEART THE PORN!!

----POEM----- "Music" A symphony of harsh tones Tearing cords, pounding drums Something so many define as simply ‘noise’ Is soothing to our ears Being classical in a way only we can comprehend Expressing feelings that we can not put into words Things we feel in a way That only that beautiful ‘noise can describe When the harsh symphony swells to a peak, a crescendo We feel the release of the pressure On our harts and minds And for a short and all too rare And precious time we can be free. by-hali n. brown

last night was awesome. brittany = sweetness! fun times! =) welp i pictures..

cars

4 yr old

now me...

beautiful brittany

rub it until she fakes it.